a happy octopus.♥

LONG TESTS & EXAMS ARE UP.

2008-02-27T20:09:00.005+09:00

Ugh. Another 2 weeks of NO COMPUTER & the latest, NO PSP. Geez.

But I feel happy since this is already the time to pull my grades up since I went down last 3rd quarter. I need to make this final quarter a good one. I really need to make my tests and exams high so that I won't have problems having a low mark on my HS cards. Waaaaa! My dream course will fly away from me!! *wails* xD

Anyways, I also have some new deviations in deviantArt :D I wanna share it LATER.

Oh! I understood our History lesson a while ago. I loved it. My adviser changed my seat, so I'm already in front. I can so see the blackboard clearly (*___*) I love it. It's my first time to sit in front. LMAO.

So currently, it's like I'm already sitting beside HIM even though he's just a space away from my table. I so hate it but in the same time, I like it when I see his ugly face cursing me all the time XD NOT REALLY CURSING. If you're good to him, he's also good. But if you're a jerk and you say "!@#$ you!" to him... Get ready to be killed. LOL

I need a new hobby. Again.

I asked my aunt if we can go to the GYM again this summer and she approved. So, yey! I'll really maintain my diet SERIOUSLY already. Hee.

Give me a nice username. I had it with my old dA account again and I want to make a new one.

I know you guys are all "WTF! NICO'S GOING TO MAKE A NEW ACCOUNT AGAIN!?"

I kinda feel sorry since I loved that account and a lot of people already added me as a friend there. Talented people *sigh*.

But anyways, I need to create a new one. I'll just post it in my old deviantART account even though no one cares xD except my friends, of course.

Pics!

P.S

I bought my most awaited t-shirt from HUMAN last Sunday. Hee. I love it.

I'll update again next time after 1 or 2 weeks. Hehe.

Byee~

LONG TESTS & EXAMS ARE UP.

2008-02-27T20:09:00.004+09:00

Ugh. ANother 2 weeks of NO COMPUTER & the latest, NO PSP. Geez.

But I feel happy since this is already the time to pull my grades up since I went down last 3rd quarter. I need to make this final quarter a good one. I really need to make my tests and exams high so that I won't have problems having a low mark on my HS cards. Waaaaa! My dream course will fly away from me!! *wails* xD

Anyways, I also have some new deviations in deviantArt :D I wanna share it LATER.

Oh! I understood our History lesson a while ago. I loved it. My adviser changed my seat, so I'm already in front. I can so see the blackboard clearly (*___*) I love it. It's my first time to sit in front. LMAO.

So currently, it's like I'm already sitting beside HIM even though he's just a space away from my table. I so hate it but in the same time, I like it when I see his ugly face cursing me all the time XD NOT REALLY CURSING. If you're good to him, he's also good. But if you're a jerk and you say "!@#$ you!" to him... Get ready to be killed. LOL

I need a new hobby. Again.

I asked my aunt if we can go to the GYM again this summer and she approved. So, yey! I'll really maintain my diet SERIOUSLY already. Hee.

Give me a nice username. I had it with my old dA account again and I want to make a new one.

I know you guys are all "WTF! NICO'S GOING TO MAKE A NEW ACCOUNT AGAIN!?"

I kinda feel sorry since I loved that account and a lot of people already added me as a friend there. Talented people *sigh*.

But anyways, I need to create a new one. I'll just post it in my old deviantART account even though no one cares xD except my friends, of course.

Pics!

P.S

I bought my most awaited t-shirt from HUMAN last Sunday. Hee. I love it.

I'll update again next time after 1 or 2 weeks. Hehe.

Byee~

I became HOLY already :) SUMMER!

2008-02-23T22:09:00.002+09:00

Then again, I've been dead for a while since last month... I think.

Anyway, I wanna share that I'm already an official member of our church starting from today onwards :D I had my baptism a while ago in our main church here in Quezon City. I feel proud for myself since before when I was still a trainee, it was hard since church hours are every Thursdays and my class is up to 5PM which sometimes, I feel very lazy already but I have to go to church since it's a requirement. But now, It's all worth it. Hee :D

I've been feeling down again nowadays and I don't really know why. But I'll try to fix myself up. I think I'm just too sad that the year's ending already. The most wonderful year is coming to an end and it sucks. BIGTIME. It seems that I enjoyed this school year so much that I didn't realize that time ran so fast that it's already the time to say goodbye to each other and welcome a new year once again. :| Do I make any sense?

Oh yeah, I have a lot of plans for summer. I'll be spending my summer probably with the whole FRUITS. I hope we can go somewhere nice this summer. Hmm.

I'll post the whole plan maybe tomorrow. I want to finish Goong already. Then I'll level up my Lili later. TEKKEENN~ LOL.

2008-02-15T22:30:00.002+09:00

HAPPY VALENTINES, everyone! Though it's kinda late. Hehe.

Thank you for my dear friends who gave me chocolates and candies. Also for someone who gave me a flower. Hahaha.

Anyway, last v-day was awesome. We had a "single's party" and ate cake for snacks. Yum.

Also, something special happened to our dear PONKAN that day. Aww. We love you so much, Chris! xDD

Then today, we had our picture taking in Theatre Mall together with our 2 beloved Korean girls and Chesca's brother, Karl.

I feel sad since I don't have anything more to update in my deviantArt account. Huuhuhu. This sucks. I really look up to Tricia Gosingtian's (slumberdoll from deviantArt) works. I don't know her tricks in making her photos look so awesome. But her works are like inspiration to me which tells me that I have to try my best to be good as her. I look up to a lot of Photographers out there but her style really as in really interests me. I want my shots as good as hers.

Oh and also, I heard that Kyoko will be moving this month I think. We'll have again a scheduled photoshoot (*_____*) YATTA!~ Theme is Dark. Warrior something something. Can't wait for it.

And OMG. Major hair problem TT______________TT I really, really 1,000,000 times regret cutting my bangs so short! F*ck! I'll wait for like... 4 months or more just for it to grow again into a good looking one. This so sucks. I had to wear a headband and look crazy this morning. I looked like a shi tzu half pig. WTF.

I'll be shopping for new clothes tomorrow (probably). I'll go to human and buy that graphic t-shirt with camera prints on it tomorrow. I hope it won't cost so much since I treated Ji Hyun & Ruth in Starbucks a while ago. Aigoo.

Anyway, I still have to continue playing.

OH! SPEAKING OF PLAY~ I bought my PSP slim already last Feb. 10! I love it to bits.

Oh 1 month (or less) to go before vacation. It's sad, yes. But my spirit is telling me to enjoy the remaining days with my classmates and friends since on summer vacation, I'll be spending most of my time with my bestfriends. We're thinking of summer jobs but we're still thinking where to go with this age. LOL.

I have to end the entry now.

Goodnight & Happy Valentines, everyone!

2008-02-08T21:58:00.000+09:00

OMG. I haven't typed here for a while again. I've been busy again.

So currently, I'm studying Korean. It's very, very hard (for me, of course). I'm trying my best to learn though. This will take me 4 years or more. Since I took my self-study Japanese lessons for 6 years and I'm still not fluent. :| I got addicted to Korean because of my #1 addiction as of this month--- COFFEE PRINCE. It's really, really, really addictive. First episode and I'm like "OMG I love Yoon Eun Hye!" and then "OMFG... GONG YOO BE MINE!" =)) those kinds of words just popped in my mind then there, I got obsessed.

It's a very funny and weird story especially if you're gonna focus on Han Kyul's feelings towards Eun Chan. You'll go "OMG. He's gay!?". Yes, he felt like he was but it's just a misunderstanding because he really thought that Eun Chan was a guy and he started developing "wild" feelings for him later in the mid-episodes of the series. I loved episode 10 since if it was a guy-to-guy story, I swear it'll give me ultra goosebumps all over my body and fall head-over-heels in love with GAYS. I mean, in episode 10, Han Kyul kissed Eun Chan after a big fight. Han Kyul really got confused with his feelings so he went back to the shop and kiss Eun Chan for like... 2 minutes? Hmm... *squeels*. To think that he thinks that Eun Chan IS A GUY! (omg sorry for my crappy grammar. I'm too hyper right now). He was like "Listen carefully... I only have to say this once so you better listen up... I LIKE YOU" Gong Yoo's Korean accent really made shivers run down my spine because of the word "Jowayo".

Anyways, enough of Coffee Prince fandom. I still have a lot of things to prioritize first. I'm strating to get the feeling that I flunked 3rd quarter. But I still hope to have an average of 82 something. LOL

I hate my grades in MATH, SPANISH, ENGLISH & BIOLOGY. Ugh.

I'm also busy in planning what I'll do this summer vacation. I'm already planning to design my room, in fact, I already have an idea in mind xD I really want to design my room. I want to officially plan it this summer. Yey.

I have to sleep now, my eyes are swelling and I think I'll just watch the rewind of Music Station SuperLive 2007 next time.

Goodnight, guys.

Just wanted to share something

2008-01-26T15:32:00.000+09:00

I just want to share some pictures I took while reviewing for Math exams. xD I was in my dad's office and the lighting there is soo beautiful xDD so I took dramatic photos out of boredom. Hee

That's obviously from my Jdorama obsession--- HANA-KIMI. xDD I just can't get those words from Ashiya Mizuki out of my mind before she left Ohsaka Gakuen *tears*.

This is a sudoku-like-rubik's cube. Geez. I don't know why people love this toy so much.

Anyway, I talked to my mom a while ago. Then of course, as usual, we talked about stuffs from the past and became dramatic again. I always bring up this topic that's why I feel sad about giving my mom some hard time explaining things to me.

TO CHESCA- sis, thanks for comforting me a while ago when I needed somebody to talk to while my mom was explaining her part of the story.

I don't want to type any message in here anymore for my mom than "I love you so much, ma" and "don't worry a thing". At least we fixed things up earlier and I'm glad she was able to explain everything to me.

Anyways, I still have to take a bath xD I immediately signed in after waking up earlier.

I'll just update things again later. I still haven't watched Coffee Prince yet & I wanna start watching Spring Waltz. :|

2008-01-26T00:25:00.000+09:00

Haven't updated for a while.

Anyway, exams are over and I'm happy. But I feel uneasy about my grades. I think I'll be having a low mark this quarter. I just can't understand the lessons. I really feel bad about my long tests especially Math. It's so embarrassing especially to my dad and aunt. I'll really do my best this final quarter and try to really change my study habits and pull my grades up.

Oh yeah, I bought a journal. I just can't post everything that's on my mind in my blog since this isn't really a place where I can type all my deepest secrets and stuffs I always rant about. In my journal, I can really express myself that's why it's kinda like my major "stress-reliever" (not sure on the way I typed it xD).

So a while ago, we had our gimmick after the exams. It was super fun. But I hate our picture! It's not well edited! *tears*. We watched Alvin and The Chipmunks. Gosh, I've watched the movie for like 3 times already! Oh and yeah, Ruth and I saw something that we're dying to wait for--- Narnia, Prince Caspian: The Return to Narnia. We really want to watch it soon! xDD

I'm tired but I still want to watch Coffee Prince at this hour. I'm still not done with editing this new layout I found xD I'll edit it all by tomorrow. Hee : )

Anyways, I'll just update later. Regular Classes again next week! FOURTH QUARTER already!? Time flies so fast. It's like, I just took the entrance exam in OB last week and now it's fourth quarter and I survived school for the first time. Thanks to my very supportive family and friends. I love you all : )

2007-12-25T21:47:00.000+09:00

I need a friggin journal/diary. :

I'm not really comfortable in typing in here sometimes.

Anyways, MERRY CHRISTMAS, guys. :) Happy New year, too!

How did you enjoy Christmas? :]

Well, for me... I'm happy 'cause sooner or later, I'll get my camera & PSP. Those are the things that keep me happy. Haha..

The thing is, I feel weird. I don't know why but... This is not the kind of Christmas I imagined it would be. Well, I don't wanna talk about it though.

Sigh...

I wanna cry so badly. I really don't like my Christmas.

Anyways, I'll just rest my eyes. Hehe.. ^^;;

I've been watching HanaKimi & it made my day happy, too! *is obsessed already*

I'll just update again tomorrow. I wanna sleep.

Goodnight everyone & Happy Christmas to all of you. :)

2007-12-24T22:44:00.000+09:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS, everyone. :]

May you all have a very wonderful celebration with all your family and friends. Have a very happy Christmas & a prosperous New year! :D

Okay, so enough with teh greetings first. I know we are all excited about celebrating Christmas but for now, I wanna share something I'm currently obsessed with. Hahaha

Uh-huh. It's a new obsession of mine. Haha!

Anyways, I just bought the DVD a while ago. I finished up to episode 5 only. I loved it by just watching the first episode! XD the story is was so sweet. I wish it will have a very happy ending. :]

We went to the grocery a while ago to buy foods for tomorrow's Christmas celebration. Haha!

I can hear fireworks already! I feel happy hearing those. <3

I'm gonna finish watching Bokura ga Ita later. I wasn't able to look for a hana kimi DVD 'cause we we're already in a hurry. *uwaa*

I'm kinda lazy to type right now though. I'll just take pictures tomorrow & update again. Wheee i love Christmas! & i might get my DSLR cam sometime this week! I love you, mama! :*

Ok, I think I should rest now. Haha! I wanna finish watching Bokura ga Ita!

I can't wait for my PSP, too. XDD

Goodnight, everyone. Merry Christmas again! *hugs*

2007-12-21T21:42:00.000+09:00

Wow. It's been a while since I last updated XD

Anyway, I've been enjoying a lot this school year. Compared to last year's hell experience as I always call it. Haha. :P

Uh, this post will be kinda long XD but anyhow, here it goes.

Yesterday, we had our Christmas party. It was a lot of fun but the film viewing ate lots of our party time *tears* but we were still able to eat & play fun games. LOL

I'm so happy 'cause I loved my outfit! GREEN SATIN BLOUSE & a MINT GREEN POLKA-DOTTED TIE (not sure about "polka-dotted" lol XD). I already planned to wear this outfit since the Food Fair but sadly, I wasn't able to buy nice clothes that time 'cause we're in a hurry already. But it's okay since I really enjoyed wearing that kind of outfit in our Christmas party. I saw that design from a Japanese girl's friendster profile, but her's was a little too over-accessorized so I toned it down to a very simple one. Haha!

I heart my outfit. :]

wasted face as always. LOL

I received lots of gifts. To me, it's a lot 'cause I wasn't able to receive this many from my friends for a long time now *tears*. Haha XD I also have lots of pics from the Christmas party, Click this link: http://chapelet.multiply.com/photos/album/28/December_20_2007_-_Christmas_Party. :]

So after the school Christmas party, my friends and I had an after party gimmick. Angelo Angeles (our old classmate in Gr.6) was also with us with his friend Patricia *ayeeee* XD. We watched ENCHANTED. It was soo adorable and awesome. Haha! I love fairy tales. LOL. I used to love Disney movies before but stopped. But the movie was really great. I love it. I even cried! XD I looked like a wacko inside the theater while watching it with my friends XDD We were like... 12 in the cinema with other people (mostly students from our area: ICA, Fountain & Poveda maybe). I was screaming and laughing like crazy with the dancing roaches and mice! LMAO. My aunt has a fake DVD of it XD I'm gonna watch it again. LMFAO. *dances*

After the movie, we went to Kameraworld to have our group picture taken. It was so fun we we're so noisy inside the studio. Haha!

After picture taking, we went to McDo to eat a little then back to Chesca's house to pack our things. It was not a sad goodbye 'cause we had so much fun & it's Christmas, we all should enjoy the holiday season with our family :) sila naman pakisamahan natin. Lagi na lang natin kasama mga barkada natin kaya let's spend quality time with our pamilya this Christmas. :D

Picture taking after watching the movie ENCHANTED. ♥

L-R: Jane, William, LA, Ruth, Angelo, Kim, Christell, Chesca, Me, Chelsea & Patricia.

That picture taking was crazy! Haha! We were so noisy even the guard told us to shut up. Haha! Thank you Karl (chesca's trusty bro) for taking the pic! Haha! Poor Karl, he wasn't able to join any of our pics 'cause he was our "photographer". Dx

Okaay. Was that even a long entry? XDD

I forgot to type in here that I won "Most Creative" in our class. Aww. Haha! I'm honored(!?) WTF. XDD

Anyway, today was really sucky. I wasn't able to meet up with Justine (Kyoko) and Chesca in Metrowalk *tears* Sorry guys! It was really traffic. I hated the road today XDD We were able to get to Metrowalk but it was already too late since I was texting both of them and they both went home already. All of us weren't able to see each other! Only Justine was the one who went there and Chesca just told her where the store is then she went straight to the province while me, my dad and our driver was all confused how to get there! It gave us a major headache.

So my dad insisted that we go straight to my aunt so he can already go to his work. It wasn't really boring in my aunt's office since I was playing with her mini Asus laptop XD I camwhored with it's built-in webcam XDD lol. After that, I took a nap :D then when I woke up, I saw a plate of lechon baka that my aunt was telling me. It was so goood. XDD I saved some for my dad of course. Haha!

Chavit (a cat there in UE) gave birth to new kitties! But I only saw 2 of them a while ago. The one that looks like Chavit was soo hyper. I saw them playing so I went there and crashed their place XDDD Chavit looked so thin! Her babies are adorable! I wanna go back to them on Sunday :D I love feeding them.

Ok, I'll stop now XD I'll just post the webcam pics here tomorrow (probably). LMAO.

MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE. ♥

P.S

Let us all be proud of Charice Pempengco.

Click to see video when she performed in Korea (see Super Junior go "whoa" o__O): http://ph.video.yahoo.com/video/play?vid=1605098

Hero convention & random stuffs

2007-12-07T21:58:00.000+09:00

HATAW HANEP HERO CONVENTION - December 1, 2007

It was a really great day. I was still feeling unwell since Thursday but I was able to survive & enjoy the convention that day.

A lot of people were there. SM-X was sooo big. I was happy again to see cosplayers around me (eventhough some are a little "over" with their costumes).

I went with Kyoko & Kuro (Justine & Anton Severino). I first went to their house to change and after a few minutes, we went to SM-X already. The convention venue is like an extension place of SM MALL OF ASIA. It was also big. To think that place is just for exhibits and conventions, it's really a big place.

After a really tiring day, we went home to Kyoko's house and had a mini trial photoshoot of Jigoku Shoujo. Their house is really nice. It's big and it's veery bright inside. Perfect for a dramatic photoshoot. LOL

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Today was Mrs. Fecundo's birthday (our adviser). We had a somewhat like of a simple surprise party during homeroom period.

We enjoyed the mocha cake. :]

Algebra was a pain as always & in History class, we had a guest. He was really good in explaining stuffs to us. For me, I was inspired to hear his story of being able to achieve something. I want something like that too because I don't have any other goals in my life than to follow my dream to be a graphic artist & a professional photographer someday. My life revolves around ART and nothing else. I love writting fictional stories from my favorite anime or just inventing one when I'm inspired in doing so. Since I was little, I loved to draw. I always draw everywhere. I even get scolded by my dad always because I always draw on our house's walls. LMAO. Drawing is my life. Without a sheet of paper and a pencil, I wouldv'e died already living in a world without drawings. Drawings makes me feel I'm not alone. It's like a diary & an imaginary friend all in one. I express myself through drawing.

Photography was already my hobby since Grade 5. But I didn't know much about Photography yet that time. I got serious with Photography during my 1st year in high school. It became my hobby because I always feel like I wanna capture every beautiful moment that comes in my life. Haha. Dramatic no? LOL.

My mom is a photographer and she studied phtography before. Her talent in fixing gadgets were also passed on to me. I'm a fast learner when it comes to gadgets, but sometimes if it's too complicating, I end up reading the manual for days. LMFAO.

Oh yeah, I think I'll post a random entry here about the things I want to share about my life. Haha. I feel like writting something like that. :]

Anyhow, I have to go now. Nightie night.

A sucker day & ART CLUB!

2007-11-29T22:18:00.000+09:00

What will you feel if a friend you love helping with her/his problems played a trick on you? It hurts, right?

I was in a bad trip earlier. I went to school feeling so down. I miss someone.

& after a while, another thing happened after lunch. It really made me feel very bad.

Right now, after talking to some friends in YM, I feel kinda okay now. At least I know that there are people who supports me. I first talked to Chesca about it in art class after school. She told me not to take it seriously. I'm really, really sensitive and for me, it's a very sad thing for a friend to do that to me.

One said sorry to me already. I'm not mad. It's just sad thinking, why do they have to try looking serious with that thing a while ago? It's pretty obvious that they were already joking. But why do they have to lie to me and decide not to tell me the truth? Sad thing is, they're the friends I love to help when they have problems. I really want to be close to them. I want them to be confident sharing things with me since I want to help them get over with such problems.

It's like, you've helped that person and that person's payback for you is a prank.

Anyhow, enough of this already. I'm trying to enjoy my day without thinking about that. I know it's kinda mababaw but for me, it's a serious thing. I just don't want to be fooled and get laughed at anymore or worst, saying bad things behind my back. I had a worst experience of that kind. I'm sorta getting over it but bad memories just flow out of nowhere when similar things are currently happening. Ugh. I hate it.

Okay so, I ENJOYED art club.

"I so hate it! Marco gets a high score even without studying! But... I think it really runs in the family. I mean, his aunt is even a BIOCHEMISTRIST!!!!" - Chesca

That's for making fun of my "Squidward is an octopus" thingie! LOL! Love you sister dearest. :]]

I'm sleepy. I'll just update tomorrow.

& OMIGAHD!!

I'm so excited for the HERO CON. on Saturday!

Sad, Alodia (my favourite cosplayer) won't be coming there. She'll be coming on the 2nd day of the event. Waaaaaaaaaaaaah *tears* we won't be able to see her.

Nightie-night.

adjustment day. :D

2007-11-25T21:09:00.000+09:00

*smiles*

Gooodieee. I went to my dentist today for my brace adjustment. :]

I picked red for my rubbers :D it kinda hurts now 'cause I have a continuos rubber on my upper teeth *is in pain*. Ouch.

Err. I didn't enjoy my day today because I wasn't able to buy myself a new school bag. I'm kinda happy 'cause I bought a new simple t-shirt with a cross graphic with sequins on it. Wheee. I bought it at the new LANDMARK mall in North Edsa (next to Trinoma). Wuhahaha.

I saw my beloved dog, Milo earlier before leaving the house. He's so big! I remember when he was still a little pup, he loves lying down that's why he's too fat (like me). But now, he has exercises in the morning & he's very healthy. I love him. :] Labradors really are big dogs. Milo grew so fast like my Golden Retriever, Buddy.

Okaaay.

I'm suppose to type here about the party last Friday for the two teachers (Ms. Llanto & Mr. Tabada). I'm too lazy to write it. :

All I can say is, Angelo, Kat & Marilag did a good job in their drama. It really looked realistic. :]] I even got scared at the first act for Ms. Llanto. LOL.

2nd act for Mr. Tabada: Sir knew it was all an act 'cause he saw Angelo smiling while doing a fake fight between him and Marilag. But the first one with Kat looked real! :D

3rd act for our 2 History teachers: It looked too real but our current History teacher, Ms. Datu-Ramos knew it was all an act after talking to Angelo about his "lost wallet". :]]

Ugh. I don't really like typing it here because I don't really like mentioning our teacher's names in here. All I can say is, it was fun but a little scary because we don't know what might turn out in the end after scaring our teachers to death because of a fake fight. Haha. Oh well.

Noooo.

School again tomorrow. :

I'm excited but I'm too lazy to get up early tomorrow. Demmit. :

I wish we don't have classes on Friday! *prays*.

& Oh yeah! I'm halfway done in my Biology homework pictures. I'll be done by Wednesday. I'm such a lazy bum in doing projects like this. Waaa. :

Anyways, countdown to Christmas! 1 MONTH LEFT. xDD

Happy Hours & remembering HELL days

2007-11-23T20:21:00.000+09:00

I feel happy.

I think, I've started this school year right. I mean, I love my school. Unlike before, I hated the school so much. It's like, I wanna kill all the students & workers there. But I just realized, I was just being too self-centered, that's all.

I was a loner. I didn't have much friends & I hated being around people. I crave attentions from my teachers & my classmates which led to weird & bad looks (kind of like disgusted or 'do-not-want' looks).

I wanted myself to change for the better, that's why I decided to transfer school.

I applied for Assumption College. I liked the school. The campus was big and they have a church inside. The classrooms are your usual view of any other classrooms in any school but it's kinda bigger. I took the entrance exam with my old classmate, Krizzia Koh. I was shocked to see her while waiting for the person-in-charge to bring us to the testing room.

Lucky Krizzia, she passed the entrance exam while loser me, FAILED.

The second was, I applied in School of the Holy Spirit, Q.C. which was near to our house in Commonwealth. The school looked really cool but the classrooms and the hallways are kinda creepy. I loved their soccer field though (which was located at the back of the school near the GYM, I think). I took the test there together with 4 or 5 other girls. The test was easy but as always, I FAILED, for the second time.

I cried while talking to my aunt and daddy. I asked them what's wrong with me & they told me I should study hard next time. They were having a hard time deciding what school to go in next and decided for me to go to St. Paul University Q.C.

I always go with my dad when he goes to St. Paul to fix my papers and stuffs. My most awaited part while applying there was the uniform. I love school uniforms especially the sailor ones and the oxford style ones which is usually used in IS. When I finally got my Paulinian uniform, I tried on it EVERYDAY. I was too excited for the incoming school day.

I have a really boyish side, so I tried to change it on the first day of school in SP. I had a first day blooper also! I was so excited for school & I kept on jumping. I noticed that the hooks of my skirt is kinda loosey so my skirt fell down but only my back was seen! Not the entire BUTT! LOL.

I went inside with my proud dad & happy step-mother. I remember my dad's face after the interview. He nearly jumped of happiness because I passed a very prestigious school (which is known for a lot of negative sides but still has a positive side, of course). He immediately called my step-mom & told me I passed.

I looked at the students around me that time. Geez. I nearly died. THEY'RE ALL PRETTY. Well yeah, some aren't LIKE ME. LMFAO. The campus was filled with pretty high school girls. Guys would drool if they were in my place that tme. I also looked stupid because I was wearing a black hairband and a purple hobo bag with long socks and long skirt. GOHD. If I think about that, it gives me the creeps looking at myself.

After a while, I sat down with a lot of students which was infront of the gym. I noticed O.B.M.C students running around. That time, I really felt uneasy. I was like "what if my old life in OB will soon come back because I have an old classmate here & even scool mates?? I'm not even good friends with this old classmate of mine!". I just remained calm and just smiled at the old students who look at me and smile.

My old OB life didn't just come back to me. It was a lot worse that you can ever imagine...

...it was HELL.

Bullies and bitches were everywhere. I took a lot of words back (words like "I love St. Paul") and became a loner and was labeled a LOSER.

I cried each night but still sturggled to fight over my fears. If I can only write a book about my 1 year stay in St. Paul, I WOULD.

I thought of having suicide. I thought of dropping school. I even thought of KILLING the bullies one by one.

Yes, I had friends. We were the ones who are bullied since half of the class were part of the bullying group. They don't bully us physically. They bullied us by laughing at us, saying false words about us (because they misunderstand us a lot & sometimes makes a big deal about small things).

A friend of mine who was bullied by them (and some of our classmates), moved to Los Angeles. There, she sent messages saying that the bullying girls sucks. But then, those girl would reply a meaner message to her saying she's too stupid to do that and all. She left last December 2006. Just before our 3rd quarter exams. She even asked me along with our other friends to report the bullies to our principal along with her mom. She wasn't able to take it any longer so they left by the week after that (I think).

Left with some of my other friends who are also bullied, I tried my best to think of things that will make me happy. I visit OB once in a while because I really love to see my good friends. They always make me smile & laugh after a really bad day.

I was also molded into some kind of a lesbian monster during my stay there. I learned to love the same sex & was even deeply love-struck by the girls I like. I became a BISEXUAL person.

My dad had problems & wasn't able to sleep well during those days of him thinking that I'm following the footsteps of my mother. I was hurt. I was in real pain. I didn't know who I am. My aunt was also doubting I have a girlfriend in school. My dad even HIRED A SPY to check on me every snacks & lunch time. Crazy huh?

They thought of transferring me back in OB but that time, I declined it. I don't want t go back to OB. For me that time, St. Paul is my new home. My friends even got dissapointed at me for not replying to their IMs and comments in friendster. I regret those times. I was really sorry. I never realized that I'll end up coming back to them when I'm in need of help. I was really selfish.

I learned to love my old friends because I realized that they're my true friends & eventhough we will have a fight, I know we'll end up joking each other & hug each other. Sweet huh? Haha.

But, I also thank St. Paul. My teachers who were supportive of me, my friends who helped me get over my fears and eventhough just for a short time, they made me feel I was part of them & lastly, ironic as it may seem, THE BULLIES.

I wouldn't be like this if I didn't experience those kind of things. Those experiences made me a better person & made my new school life enjoyable. For religion, I think that was the only time I got closer to God. Each day, I'll pray 2 times. One in the morning, and one at night before sleeping. I thank him for letting me get through that struggle & for making me realize the truth about reality in life. He even made me think that problems are also the best thing you'll experience in your whole life because it mold us into a new and better person.

The problems you're experiencing now are just starters. You have to be strong & you have to face your fears. What will you do if you will end up crying always? There are still a lot of problems to face, so why not bravely face the problems you're experiencing now so that it'll prepare you for your other life obstacles in the future? Think about it. :] hehe.

OKAY.

Enough said. I'm making this entry waaaaaay to long.

I'll end this with a message to my close friends, classmates & OBMCI schoolmates:

i love you guys so much. :]

UPDATE:

I'll type in the crazy things that happened a while ago in school, this entry got too long so I'll just update again tomorrow.

Then again, happy birthday to our two most beloved teachers:

Ms. Llanto & Mr. Tabada !!!

May you both have the best of luck & may God bless you both always. We love you so much !!

a million thanks...

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... to Maggie. :]

She helped me with my blogger account. I love her so muchie! :D

Uh, this will not be a long blog entry because I'll just start posting serious ones later. (probably tomorrow).

& I still have to fix my site. It's so blank.

Anyways, me have to go to sleep now.

Yeah it's so early 'cause it's just like... 8:30PM. LOL.

Goodnight for now & expect my flodding posts here probably starting tomorrow. Haha. :]

Nightie night, guys.